So last week and the beginning of this week were rough for me. I have battled depression and mood highs and lows since i was 16. I have seen therapists and physiologists. I have been a bindge drinker, bindge eater and cutter. Thankfully after my dad died my mom and brother found me a great Dr who didn’t just prescribe meds but took the time to work through my, at the time current, issues and teach me tools to pull myself out of that dark place when i went there. He knew it would be a lifelong battle for me and probably saved my life. Before him i was headed down a bad path. I have never been and will never be ashamed of past or of the fact that i deal with this. Feeling the extreme lows also means I get to feel the extreme highs, I get to love deeper and more often then most people becuase I wear my emotions on my sleeve. Yes it can be difficult and painful but it can also be joyous and wonderous. I will have an adventure filled life, the battle is simply to do it on a healthy way which is why i am so passionate about eating healthy and being active.
That being said lets catch up.
My sweet coworker got me flowers and candy to cheer me up om the anniversary of my dads death
Friday Artemis and I got up with the sun and went for the shortest run ever lol
I wasnt super happy about getting out of bed lol
Friday night we went to the vet, Artemis had to get her shots. Shes up to date and protected now!
Then we relaxed to make sure she didnt have any reactions
Saturday we pretty much just relaxed and she slept a lot. Recovering from the shots
I caught this wonderful picture when she yawned
Saturday night/Sunday morning i hit rock bottom and took a nap after only being awake an hour then layed in bed and cried. I made myself get out of bed and go for a walk with Artemis
We went 3 miles. And i reached out to family and friends to keep an eye on me for self-destructive behavior.
After the walk i went grocery shopping and did meal prep
I love to cook so this helped my mood a lot.
Each day i am climbing out of the dark. Today was a good day and i am almost back to normal! Thankfully these lows only happen 2-3 times a year depending on the year sometimes even less.
Went for a walk with the roommate tonight
And my cowoker finished a really interesting book and gave it to me to ready. Only on the 2md chapter and im hooked! Can’t wait to keeo reading
Thats it for me!!
If anyone ever suffers from suicidal thoughts or self-destructive behavior or severe depression please reach out to someone. You are not alone, i know it feels like you are, but you are not.
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