What should I do?

Hi everyone!! So I have somewhat of a dilemma, I love doing this blog and connecting with you guys and sharing my journey with you but I have hit the space limit on this blog. I currently pay $100/year for this blog, which i don’t mind since I love doing it. But since I have now hit the GB limit and it doesn’t increase each year when I pay I can either stop uploading pictures and videos (which yea right, we all love the visual stuff), i can go delete old pictures from some of the first posts i did but i will have to slowly keep deleting old things to make room for new things ( I don’t really like this idea either) or I can move to a different platform. I have been slowly moving some of my videos to YouTube and copying the link on here already. Would you guys be interested in subscribing to my YouTube instead and I go to all videos? To keep going as I am now on here, it would cost me $300 a year which I can’t really justify since I am just doing this for fun and not making any money off of it.

What do you think?

Monday Motivation** October 15, 2018

What’s up??!!! How are you all??

I am recovering from the weekend lol. I had my bachelorette spa day which turned into a night out. I was still home by 9 and in bed by 10 but I’m still exhausted and was dehydrated afterwards bahahahahaha! That tells you how little I party these days.

I will show you some pics of Wednesday and tell you all about it but I will leave you with this tidbit…..I fit into a small tanktop!!!! and actually felt good in it!!! What??!!

14 lbs down!!!!

When I lose another 15lbs I get to buy more stitchfix!!!!!

Bridal shower! 2 weeks until the wedding and sickness!!!

Taco salads have made an appearance over here again. So easy for lunch and last minute/running late mornings. It is just lettuce, salsa chicken (throw chicken and salsa in a crockpot and let it cook on low for 6 hours or high for 3 until you can shred it and voila), cheese and hot mild sauce.

Mom was in town this weekend!!! We all went out to breakfast!

Word of Mouth Cafe in Salem is AMAZING!!!!!

I got biscuits and gravy with bacon and eggs.

He got creme brulee french toast with corned beef hash, eggs and bacon

mom got the creme brulee french toast with bacon and eggs

someone got me sick!!!! Fighting off a narly cold over here!

My Bridal shower!!!

The guys showed up at the end and football got turned on hahahhhhaah!!

Dress and Necklace from Stitchfix!

My bridal shower was perfect! My wonderful soon to be in-laws put it on for me, it was fun but low key which is perfect for me. There was delicious food and drink and I got some amazing gifts!!! Moments like this are so surreal!!!! I’m really getting married in just 2ish short weeks!!! So crazy!!!!! Makes me have heart palpitations hahahahahahahaha!!!

more soup eating while i have been sick

This shirt also came in my fix, i LOVE it!! it is a beautiful plum color. How sexy is that neck!!!!???

Here is a closeup of the detail on the leggings. so cute and so comfy!!!

and here is a close up of the necklace.

I also got a jacket but it was a little big so sent it back to exchange it for a smaller size, i will show you when i get it back.

Use this link to try stitchfix and get $25 towards your first fix!

Another great fix from stichfix!!!! now to lose another 14lbs so i can treat myself to another box!!! I am currently at 164. when i hit 150 I’ll order another box!!! talk about motivation!!!!

Now my alarm is going off and i have to get ready for my first practicum!!!! Stay tuned for details about that on Friday!!

 

Fall 2018 school week 2

Week 2 done….mostly. Only 8 more weeks to go not including finals. It still amazes me how fast quarters fly by compared to semesters.

My psych class is more interesting than last quarters because it deals with a person from life to death and all that encompasses their life which is a little more geared to nursing than my last psych class was. Overall though it is still a little boring. This week we are learning about the period of conception to birth. Lots of talk about genes and chromosomes so far.

This is week 2 of muscles and we are getting more in depth. I would say i am comfortable with about 1/2-2/3rds of what is required for my practicum next week. I can find most of it on diagrams and spent 2 hours of lab getting comfortable with where things are on the models and how to differentiate because the models are not the clearest things. Then I spent 10-15 min in the cadaver lab making sure I could find most of the muscles on the cadavers with some degree of confidence.

Let me tell you 10-15 minutes in there is very different than 3 minutes of introduction. After about 10 minutes breathing in all those chemical fumes really got to me and i got lightheaded and felt that hot cold flush so I stepped out, the last thing I wanted to do was faint in there. I took a few deep breathes outside the lab then went back in to get a quick look at the body that was positioned on their posterior side as i had been working with the anterior model. Those are some really harsh chemical fumes with not much ventilation.

The cadaver lab is definitely invaluable as a learning tool but it is really hard to deal with all the emotions, they sneak up on me.

Here is a train of thought for most of the cadaver lad period, yes this is pretty accurate:  oh i am looking at the actual rectus femerous cool! and that is the vastus medialus and vastus lateralus, i got this, where is the adductor longus, oh its right there next to some pubic hair ohhhh hair, this was a person, who is dead…….and oh man the professor is now moving muscle around to try and show us the adductor magnus which is burried down in there oh man that is a little gross but cool but weird…….ahhhh too much to think about and oh man is that smell overwhelming…… oh lets try the other cadaver to see if you can see it better nope, not really, oh good so that definitely wont be asked on the practicum if even he cant find it, uh oh i feel a little light-headed and weird, get out now before you collapse. GO!!! Ok deep breathes, take a minute and get back in there! But pay attention to how you feel. OK i am ok, oh is that the trapezius and the gluteous maximus and the gluteous medius and the piriformus, look at me identifying these! OH that smell, so that is the rhomboid major, is that the levetae scapular? oh man, the smell, it is now so much worse, my nostrils are on fire, oh the tricep brachii ok i think i am done, need to get out. where does this instrament go? wash your hands, oh what is everyone looking at…….oh fetuses in jars in the cupboard, wow that is cool, oh man so sad……so so sad, dont want to think about it. time to leave.

I was definitely woozy, shakey and a little nauseous afterwards. I took it easy all night after lab. It is difficult to digest all the feelings that come with the cadaver lab but I am still so thankful that i get to experience it.

I feel like I am keeping up and on track but don’t feel like I’ve gotten ahead yet this quarter and with all the wedding things I might not get ahead, we will have to see.

3 Weeks until the Wedding!

How do you tell that face to get off the bed? Sometimes I can and sometimes I can’t.

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I worked out Sunday and Monday but took Tuesday off because i was still a little squeamish after lab which I will tell you about on Friday.

Quickest dessert I ever made.

This is my breakfast most work mornings. I mix my coffee instead of plain water with it so I get breakfast and coffee in one!

Adjusting to the first week of school new schedule meant I didn’t plan enough meals and made a few fast food stops before class. I THINK I might be better prepared today, if not i will allow myself subway again but no other fast food, I will be in that dress sooner than I know!!!!!

This is how I feel some days about anatomy already. I love it but all the sheer quantity of information is daunting. Though I am learning once I really dig in so far it is manageable.

The rare morning I actually have breakfast.

We went on a nice walk before lab yesterday. I think Tuesdays might be her new favorite day, I am home most of day with her while I study and so far both Tuesdays we have gone on 2 walks to get out some of her energy so I can actually study and to break up my monotony of studying for several hours.

Brandon made some delicious beef and barley soup on Monday. It is great comfort food in the crisp fall weather we are starting to have and really nice after a tough day.

I have always been a great sleeper, I can fall asleep easily and stay asleep but man, I would say already like 3 days this quarter I have had so much information running through my head either with anatomy stuff or with wedding stuff that there have been a few semi-sleepless nights.

Coffee is life.

So yes, just over 3 weeks until we get married!!! I have my bridal shower this weekend that my amazing future mother-in-law and future sister-in-laws are throwing for me. And my mom will be here for it so that will be really nice! We also have a half marathon this Sunday that we have done the bare minimum training for so that will be fun….probably not hahahaha!!

Even this small elopement of 7 people (including us) is a little stressful, probably because it includes travel but I cannot imagine how stressed I would feel if we were doing a larger wedding with all these things I had to coordinate. I am so thankful we went small and intimate. I am counting the days, plus hello vacation!!!!